Forgotten Love Letters Part 1
My dear Patrick,
The sun is shining bright today. Strange, as the forecast said that it was going to rain the whole day. I guess the angels up above in charge of the weather didn’t get the memo, and instead, they probably saw me smiling all day, even as I woke up late this morning, and decided to follow my mood and make today a sun-shiny day.
I have a feeling that starting today I am going to smile all the time, hopefully the angels will not get tired of turning on the sun and turning off the rain.
In the spirit of getting to know each other better, some trivial facts about me.
I was born in a town called Bandung, west of Jakarta, in 1976. My dad had always wanted a boy as his firstborn, but then I came out a girl. He was disappointed and obviously didn't have a girl’s name ready. Mom told me he looked at sky and saw the sunlight. Then he thought, “Sonne”, which is the German word for sun. And that is how I got my name
Dad wanted a boy so desperately, so he raised me as such. This is why I was a tomboy growing up and I am more like a man than a woman in my way of thinking and dealing with my “issues”.
I am the first child of three, I have two younger brothers, Omar and Mauro. Omar just turned 31 and Mauro is turning 30 in December. I love my brothers with all my heart, they are the most wonderful two brothers anyone could ever have.
Omar is gay, lovely, and is my best friend in the whole wide world. He is also the male version of me. Mauro is married with three kids.
My best friends are scattered around the world, and they are my friends since 20–18 years ago. I have several male best friends, but the closeness level is different than my female friends. But still, there are a few of them.
I am not close with my parents, but the story about this is too long, I will tell you about it one day.
I strongly believe that while we cannot choose who our parents are or who our kids are, friends are the family you can choose, which is why I choose wisely and I have so many friends all over the world that it is actually hard for me to feel lonely because I have so many people who love me and who I love also in return. That is what I think a blessed life looks like. I am lucky I have that.
The things I love the most, being loved, being touched, being smiled at, being looked at by tender and caring eyes, and talking to like-minded people. Oh, and not to mention, cold mornings spent under the sheets with someone special, just cuddling and kissing for hours. Gazing at each other’s eyes.
A secret that not a lot of people know is that I am a romantic at heart, but I don’t show it. Not because I am afraid that people will think I am a weak girl, but to prevent my heart from believing it so much that it doesn’t get hurt so easily. But not so much that I close my heart and will be afraid to open it, to love again. I will always be brave enough to take the risk, with the right person who will take the risk with me.
So, that’s the trivial things about me for today, more tomorrow. I hope you can also tell me stuff about you so that I can get to know more and more about you.
Bisous,
S